Im in a great mood lately, and at the same time not. Everything seemed to start going right, everything! as soon as Persephone showed up, I am just glad i had the confidence that one night to show her the real me, not the wolf inside. Only problem is, the same things are going wrong as before, i just stopped giving a shit, but all i can concentrate on is keeping Persephone happy, trying to eliminate all of her problems, Hers as well as Atlas's. I dont like this feeling though....of not being able to do anything in certain situations, at least im not an idiot by any means and do something i think will help, but really wont. Every family has their problems, everybody has their quirks and thoughts.
Besides that though, ive been craving adventure, ive been needing to go mountain biking, but first, i need a decent bike. I miss being able to do fun things, go out side and ride around in the woods, be with nature while pushing yourself to do new things, everytime i go, i progress a little more. I still need a fucking bike though, its more then a little annoying how my parents are expecting me to pay for everything like that, a bike, food, games, out door activity stuff, a car, driving classes. Like fuck, what the hell do they expect of me? I dont even think those bastards have any money for my graduation, when i want to go into college and get my apprenticeship. No one is fucking hiring either! I cant for the life of me get a fucking part time job to pay for any of this shit, and my parents fucking complain when i sit up in my room, or leave the house, because all i can do, is play video games, and go hangout with friends. My dad tries to compare me to when he was a teenager, but so much shit has change, its like comparing his teen hood, to my 92 year old grandfather's, who was in the middle of a war at my age, it just doesnt work!
Then there is school, school is fucking annoying. Teachers are irritating and boring, the work is generally pretty easy, very poorly explained, and fucking tedious! Then the teachers pile on homework, and its fucking annoying, Sran, I hate Sran! He will give us three projects at once, all due at about the same time. The rest of my classes are easy as fuck though, science is a breeze, i hardly pay attention and havnt finished all the work, but the teacher is super relaxed and doesnt really care, even with that, im getting a B. Then there is math, i pay a little bit of attention, but its all so simple, i tend to over think it, Its so simple, i dont understand why people have difficulty in that class, but again, its just tedious. Social Studies is a little bit more difficult, i actually make a slight effort in that class just because some of it is interesting, the teacher is cool, one of my favorites, he talks really fast though, and its hard to take notes, so ive adapted, and learned to remember certain things he says. P.E is fucking pointless, all we do is play basketball and pingpong mostly, and i hate both of those, as well as my class is full of ball hogs, and really, isnt a class, just a group of people. The rest of my classes were bullshit so i dropped three of them, i dont have a fucking elective, i better get them next year or im going to flip shit.
Hmmmmm, what else is there to rant about..?
I have no idea, im in a confident mood, which makes me happy, when im in a good mood, i tend to be a little more energetic, just more so with energy drinks. My mind is going at full speed like this, and i cant stop it, im constantly, thinking; clearly too, and quickly. As if someone is putting it all in my head for me, its just automatic, when im like this, i tend to be pretty awesome and clever, i react to things quickly, usually when im making a joke, but also when im thinking, ill think of thought out things, become a little prophetic, my intelligence really shows like this i noticed, It makes a little more sense that i have an IQ of 145.
Well, i have no idea what to rant about anymore, Soooooooo.....until next time i guess.
I promise I intend no offense, but about having to pay for everything, and that "no one's hiring", just sounds like a handful of pointless complaints. Maybe try making an actual effort, probably something you're not used to seeing as you wrote a huge paragraph on not giving a shit. Have you thought of volunteering? Two birds, one stone; you'll be able to participate in something you're interested in, as well as have something to beef up your resume. People hiring look for someone who actually take part in their community or help others, and having those qualities are quite attractive to them.
ReplyDeleteMaybe start saving up for the things you want on your own too. You're supposed to be a "young adult" by now, act like it, Jesus. My parents ain't paying jack for anything I want, and they won't be there to buy you all the toys you want when you've moved out either. As I said, no offense, but suck it up.
I don't mean to come off as a snob either, hopefully I haven't, and hopefully Persephone won't give me a scolding for crossing any possible lines. But glad you're feelin happy!
I understand where your coming from, and no, i have not considered volunteering. There is no reason that you can say i have not made an effort, Nor did i say that i did not give a shit. This does annoy me, but im not going to let it slow me down. When i need something, ill save up for it, as i am now, but having a girlfriend is the most expensive accessory a guy can have, its true hahaha. I wrote this seeing as it was a way to blow off steam after listening to other people complain, not just Persephone, about how much their life sucks, when it doesnt really either. I know my life could be much worse, but listening to other people bitch about things they take for granted is annoying, probably the same reason why you commented on this yourself. It seems i have sucked it up already though, because im in a good mood as of late, before Persephone, everything was worse......or i was really pessimistic, could be either. And no worries, my skin is made of stone, it takes more then that to get under it.
ReplyDeleteI think I quite like you :)
ReplyDeletewhy thank you, the feeling is mutual, I respect people who are good friends.
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