Doubt

I love Persephone so much, but at times, i feel like i am not worth her time. Sometimes i think she realizes this, that im just going to slow her down and complicate her life. I want to be with her for a long time, but do i really deserve more then just friends, its always been that way, thats how ive always been treated...
I dont have a life really, Persephone is the only interesting thing happening to me at the moment, i dont have my drivers license(thanks to my parents) and im 17, i dont have a job, no one will hire me, I dont play sports or have any commitments. Im not exceptionally talented, im not unique for any sole quality, i do nothing to make me stand out against other people, I am nothing special and i think she is starting to see this, as the godess she is, she could do so much better then me, get someone who could protect her better, someone who could charm her better and make her laugh better, someone who could do more for her. I listen to Atlas, and some of his stories and his experiences, he has done so much more then i have, he has impressed more then i have, he has been more fortunate, and he is far more interesting then I. He is physically better then i am, and my equal mentally. I cannot best him at anything, at best equal him. What do i have to offer? What does Persephone see in me? I dont understand why see chose me, when if she really wanted to, she could have anyone else. I am constantly getting showed up, anything i thought i was good at, i cannot even be considered talented in anymore. I am boring, i have no stories to tell, no experiences to share, all i can boast is i have 400 scars that are mostly small, starting to fade, and not really caused by anything interesting. She says she loves me more then anything, but at times, i think i annoy her, my boring life, my uneventful family. Nothing interesting happens to me, my parents didnt let me do interesting things as a child, i never really played sports, ive never done anything dangerous enough to cause injury, ive never broken a bone or needed stitches, and actually gotten them. I just dont see how i could possible be interesting. I just wish i had more stories, more things to talk about, more experiences. I wish i had more of a life, and its no wonder why Atlas gets so many girls, why so many chicks fall in love with him. Its because he is confident, he is attractive, he has stories and experiences, he has skill from practise. Ive only ever had two girl friends, one was a whore, and the other must be delusional, Ive only ever kissed four girls. Persephone has kissed more girls then i have, and more guys, Atlas has fucked more girls he has never before met at a party then ive met at a party, or made out with. It has been said im cursed for a reason, but even im not that fucking interesting to be cursed. Mt life sucks because its always been so boring, so uninteresting and uneventful. I always try to be positive, i always try to be confident always try to agree with some of the nice things a couple people say now and again. But what is it about me that is attractive or unattractive? Ive done alot of changing in life, and wouldnt even call myself the same person as the child i was growing up ten years ago.

So, what is it about me that Persephone loves so much? Why does she think im so perfect? She is amazing, everything ive ever asked for, but somehow i doubt i can hold on to her, or that i deserve to have her.

Im rambling about something i dont understand, something that ive been proven wrong for several times. I cannot judge myself, by myself. I doubt myself inside, but i dont know.... oh well, life goes on, this doubt will pass, or recede back inside until it resurfaces later.